Like I don’t know what to do with myself I’m just crying in bed and I have no friends at all
This is a first time crying over nothing in a long time. Ive been doing really well, except for the past 2 days— I’ve been in this weird funk. I wish I knew why or how to help myself but I don’t and I’m sad. I feel alone even when I’m with friends, but when I’m with friends, I want to be alone. Does that make sense??
You scared me when you said you were going into surgery. I didn’t know what that meant. The next morning, I came go the hospital to surprise you but the doctors said you weren’t there. I called and texted you to make sure you were okay and like usual, you didn’t answer. That was definitely an eye opener for me— proving to me that you are not the type of person I thought you were. I don’t have feelings for you anymore, and I haven’t for a few weeks now, and I’m okay with that. I’ve been talking to other guys and maybe I’ll start a new chapter with one of them. I don’t know if our chapter is over yet, but for me, I’m officially moving on. See ya.